Honestly?

Honestly, No That I'm No Longer Schooling, Nor, In A Relationship..
I'm Feeling Lonesome Now.
Now I Understand Treasure What You Had.
Life Sucks Without Any Support.
Studies Are A False Reason For Employment.
When Things Are Grey, How Do I See The Beauty Of It?

Nintendo DS + Guitar Hero = FUN!

Just Got An Nintendo Ds, Its Stunning! I Got A Guitar Hero On Nintendo Ds Too. I Swear It Has TO BE THE BEST THING EVER! Nothing Compared To A Psp Or Anything. Get One. I Swear Its Worth The $.

RE: Paint Job

Hey Guys, My Room Is Nicely Painted With Pink And Black. Furniture Gonna Be Added Once My Wall Is Nicely Done. Everythings Going Well, Except The Fact Aloysius Hansel Has Broken Promise Of Staying Clean. Honestly, Lou, To Me, You're Like A Real Brother. But, I Can't Have People Coming In And Out Time And Time Again. If You're Serious About This, Fix Your Drug Problems. If You Need Help, I'm A Phonecall Away. But One More Time You're Gonna Re-offend, I Ain't Gonna Help You No More. Thats All

Mixed Feelings.

Yesterday I Was Back To Christ Church!
Yes, You Heard It. I Went Back To The God-Forsaken Place Once More To Meet Up With Old Friends And Enemies. Seemed Like Everything Was Pretty Cool Yesterday.But Underneath That, I Was Feeling Sad As I Was Unable To Find Aloysius After I Let Him Go. He Told Me, That He Needed Sometime Out Here In The World Before He Accepts Confinement. As A Friend. I Really Did Want To Tell You Where He Was, But I Wasn't Strong Enough To Betray The Understanding Of Lou, I Know That Once You're In There, Life Moves Too Slowly. So I Guess I Want To Say, Please Try To Understand Your Brother's Feelings. You Know I Love You And Your Brother. But Wouldn't You Try To Understand What Was He Trying To Do? I'm Pretty Upset Our Partnership Has To End This Way. I Rather You Get Real Drunk And Trash Everything At The Studio And I Sack You Then Letting Such A Sensitive Matter Get Into Our Heads. Nicholas. I Am Really Sorry. But I Had To Be A Brother To Both You And Lou, It Was Hard Decisions, Trust Me Nicholas.

Paint It White

Crazy Idea To Paint Myself White-Rachelle's Great Plan.

Me And Whoever's Up For This Is Gonna Be Painted White. Talking About Paint, Im Gonna Revamp My Room, I Will Take Pictures And You Guys Can Totally Check It Out. Be Prepared For A Hot Pink Room.

Change II.

I Guess Right Now I Have Gotten A New Understanding About Life.
If Singapore's Society Was Such Of An Apple Tree, Apples Taken To Factories To Harvest Apple Juice, Would You Be That Willing To Be The Apple Harvested And Used To Be A Product Of A Juice, Or Would You Be An Apple, On The Tree, Hiding Under A Leaf, Escaping The Fate Your Friends Have Blindly Accepted To And Brave The Winds And Live As Your Own Wish? I Would Be One Of The Apples Hiding I Guess. I Want My Own Path About Life, It Maybe Dangerous And Risky, But At Least I'm Doing Something I Like And Will Not Be Working A Single Day Of My Life. I Have Decided To Set Up A Team Of Tattoo Artist And Body Piercers And I Will Be Opening A Tattoo Parlor, Please Come And Visit If You Have The Chance, Me And My Team Will Be Uploading Images Of Recent Tattoos Soon. Please Stay Tuned. Or, If You Would Like'd To Be Part Of Our Show, Please Contact Me At Loveisvile@live.com.sg. Thanks.

Life.

Life, Dealt By The Fist, Harshly Against Those Whom Seems Different In Some Sorts. Prejudice, Judge-mentality Always Overruled The Potentials And Such. Pains And Suffering Brought To The Victim As Always. Life Is About The Suffering That Makes It More Intricate? But, What's Life When The Pain Never Gets Eased?

Death, Sad Yet Beautiful. To Die Means To Leave Behind. Be It Suicide Or Natural Death, To Die, Is A Fortune To Humans. By Dying, All Pain And Suffering Is Ceased To Exist. Death, Much Sweeter Then Life. Who Knows Where We Go After Death? But Is All That Really Important? Many Heros And Heroines Have Risen And Fallen. So, Would It Really Be Important To Die Not Knowing The Truth? Die Early, Die Old. What's The Difference?

Hearts.

It's The 5th Of The Month! And She's At My Place Right Now,

And We're Spending Our One Month Together ^^

We Were Drinking A Little And Dancing A Little Yesterday.

She Bought Me This Awesome Lamp! Just What I Wanted!

Well, I Got Her A Webcam, Caus I'm Selfish And Wanna See Her While I'm At Work. XD

Regina Went Off A Lil Earlier As She Was Tired And All,

But, No Worries Lil Sister,

There's Loads Of Chances For Some Party. XD

And And! I Got 2 Terrapins, Named Baba And Bubu. Haha!

Thats Pretty Much At The Moment

Hello!

I'm Not Going To Care What People Say Nomore..
I Am Gonna Love Her, And Take Care Of Her, Even If All Odds Are Against Me.
I Love Her.

The Worst.

What To Do?
What To Think?
What To Feel?
Selfish? Arrogant? Untrustworthy? Mortified? Useless?
What Have I Done?

Pain.

There Are Times That We Feel Intense Pain.
A Pain Not By Falls Or Trips,
But, A Pain Regarding The Heart.
When Someone Close To You Leaves This Earth Without Telling You,
That Pain Is Felt Again..
Time May Be Unable To Heal Any Scars,
But, Scars Makes Us Stronger Than Who We Are.
With Life, There Also Comes Death..
Acceptance Is One Thing, And, Perseverance Is Another.
In Time, I Hope That Things Would Look Out Better For You, Wayne.

~ Faithful Friend, Ricky

Guiiiittttaaarrrr!

Yesterday I Bought My First Electric Guitar!
Yeah, A Lil Late! But, I'm Picking Up Real Quick Now!
Learnt To Play Chasing Cars : Snow Patrol / My Heroine : Silverstein
And More To Be Coming!
Watch Me Rise!

And, Yeah, For Those Who Doubt My Love Towards Tiff,
I Can Say This, Everyone Loves Another In Their Own Ways.
Its Our Relationship, Don't Judge When You Aren't Part Of It.

14th Of The Month.

It's The 14th Of The Month.
A Month,A Day I've Known Her.
There Has Been Many Bad And Great Moments, But, That's What's Healthy In A Relationship
We Spent The Day Watching " Coming Soon " Together At Cathay, And It Was Great!
At The Start, I Was Real Scared And Pussified And All, But, I Laughed At The End Of It.
Although We May Have Doubts With Each Other At Times,
But, I Know We Still Trust Each Other Alot. And I Cherish Every Moment I Have With Her. :D
I Want More Time!!!

My Relationship With Her Is Totally Different From Yours!

- 14. march. 2009

Happiness

Happiness Is Beheld By The Ones That Really Go After It.
It's Been The Third Day That I'm With Her,
Every Hour, Minute, Second I Spent With Her Was Really Fast..
She's Officially My Everything.
Even Though I Can't Make Promises Of Such Of Eternal Love,
I Know One Thing, And That Is I Really Want Her..
I Don't Know If Marriage Would Be Intervened,
But, I'm Willing To Be With Her Till The Day She Gets Sick Of Me.

Photo Credits : Peggy
~Shake That Tiny Heart!
9th Of March, 11.03 PM

Change.

It's Been Awhile Since I Blogged,
Things Changed From What It Was Meant To Be.
I Have A Few Close Friends.. And Things Were Looking Good.
But, I Guess Some People Don't Really Enjoy Me Sharing About My Past,Present,Future.
I Won't Be Saying Much About Myself For Awhile I Guess.
I Just Hope I Can Be Accepted By The Ones I Hold Dear, And It Would Be Suffice.
And I Discovered That I Really Love Sunflowers.
Thanks To : Tiffany,Joeann, Peggy, Nehemiah, Peggy, Timonty, Sister-In-Law, Drich, Glenn, Xavier, Ben. For Making School Much Better.

Fucking Gently.

Valentine's Day...
Spent It Drinking, Gambling And Drinking.
Watching So Many Couples Having So Much Fun, I Think Of It, And Reflect Upon My Own Empty Life..
How I Wish I Could Have Someone For Me..
I Called Up A Few Friends And Just Talked..
Life Is Such.

12.28pm,
15 feb
Ricky.
Life Is such. And I Would Wish That I Wasn't Born

Pierced.

I Just Got My Lip Pierced On The Second Time.
It felt real good.
have you ever felt pain that actually feels good?
something that makes you so real?
thats what happened to me.
as Jesline pierced my lips, i stared hard into her eyes.
she told me not to stare.. she inserted the needle into my lips so slowly,
as it goes in, i can feel every inch going through.
it was painful, but i dont know why i enjoyed every moment of it.
I Guess No one Can Explain Certain Feelings Felt By People.
And This Is One Of It.

15th January, Christ Church Sec, 3pm

Barvazarr!

Its my second day of orientation, I just missed it.
The First Was Okay, Only Thing Is I Discovered The Teachers Had Made It Very Difficult For Students To Use And Smoke.
I Don't Know. I Think I Kinda Like The School. Only Thing Is Theres Cliques Here And There.
I Hope Everything Would Get Better...
I Guess It Will Work Out Fine, So, I'm Actually Looking Forward For The First Day Of School.

12.51pm
14th January, 2009
Baby, Join My In Death.
~Ricky

Girl, Interrupted.

It's 3 am over here. But I Felt Like Making A Movie Review, So, Here It Is.
I Just Watched Girl, Interrupted. With my sister and jude * Sister's Boyfriend*
Its a movie about a girl named Sussana who is going mad,who was admitted to a institution for the mentally disabled.
She had to live with the patients which she wasn't too comfortable being with.
The First Few Months Felt Like Hell To Her, And She Was Dying To Get Out. But Slowly, She Grew To Like The Other Girls.
------------ Don't Want To Be A Spoiler, Catch It Yourself. ----------

My Rating : 4.6/5 stars.
Acting : Brilliante
Script : Good.
Length Of Movie : Not Long Enough
Flaw : Hard For Certain People To Comprehend

The Betrayed.

I Spent Another Day Without Sun.
It seems that most of my days are filled with cigars, hookah and drinking.
You Could Say I Don't Have Much Life If You Would Like To.
It Seems I'm Facing A Certain Nostalgia Today.
It Feels So Long Ago Since I Was Convicted For Stealing Phones.
Happened Last Year June, A Man Name Jacob.
He Seemed Like A Trustworthy And Strong Leader. * Lies And Mistakes*
I Trusted Him When He Told Me We Could Make A Quick Buck Within 5 Mins. I really Trusted Him.
He Asked Me To Drag A Few Boys From The Arcade Into The Carpark, And Asked Me To Wait Outside.
After Which I Never Heard Of Him Again Till I Saw Him At A Lockup.
Trust Noone. Spare Noone.
7.44pm 9th Of January 2009

Awhile Back In Time.

It's Been Awhile Since I Met My Old Classmates..
Today I Had An Opportunity To Meet Them.
I Went To The Open House Of Ngee Ann Poly.
Even Thou I Wasn't Interested Much In That School, I Must Say I Had Fun Today.
Seeing All My Old Friends Brings So Many Great Memories I Used To Have.
But Now, Schooling In A Private School,
I Guess I Won't Have Much Privilege To Meet Them Much Anymore.

09/01/2009 Dreadful Year.

Welcoming A New Year..?

As This Time Of The Year Approaches,
Many Families In Singapore Are Ready To Celebrate The Festive Season They Call Chinese New Year.
I Have To Admit, I Really Used To Like This Season During My Childhood.
But Right Now, Going Around Giving Mandarin Oranges To Receive Pocketed Money Don't Seem That Fun Anymore.
Well, Perhaps It's Because I Have Grown Out Of It.
Either That Or I'm Sick And Tired Of These Traditions.
I Went Shopping For Chinese New Year Clothes With My Family Today.
Shopping List : Plain Hoodie ( White) < Yes >
Atticus Shirt < No >
Sex Pistols Shirt <No>
Shirt From Ministry Of Clothes < Yes >
Striking Comic Themed Bag < No >


I Guess The Reasons Why I Didn't Get Certain Items Was Because They Were Inappropriate,
Such As, : Atticus Shirt, Black.
Sex Pistols Shirt, Wordings.
Striking Comic Themed Bag, Have No Clue At All.

The Tradition Actually Says That Black Is An Ominous Colour, So I Can't Wear It.
Most Of My Days Are Filled With Going On Facebook, Drawing, Reading, Gaming And Running.
I Don't Even Like To Go Out Much Anymore.
I Guess All These Would Change If I Made It.
I Decided Not To Go Visiting This Year,
Just Wait For Halloween And Scare The Singaporeans's Shit Out.
I Can Never Be Happy And Get The Stuff I Want.

Photo Credits : I'm A Fake, Kei Zei, Deviant Art

First Entry

This Is My First Time I've Used Some Online Medium To Express Myself.
I'm Bad With Organization And I'm Not Too Sure If I Would Even Continue Using Blogspot After Today.
I'm 16.
I'm A Rebellious Kid.
I Have An Older Sister That Cares Alot For Me, A Father That Nags Like A Woman, And A Quiet Mother.
I Have Disappointed Them For Many Years.
Remember The Kid You Would See Trying To Smoke Pot Down By The Lakes.? That Sounds Alot Like Me.
The Times Where You Are In A Lift And Some Annoying Kid Smoking In It.? Yours Sincerly
The Thing About Me And These Habits Is..
I Don't Care. All I Do Is Destroy.
That Maybe What You People Would See In Me.
But To Me. I Do So. Because, I Know Life Is Too Short. If Cigars And Pot Makes Me Happy,
Or The Very Least Contended,I Would Just Go Ahead.
Listening To Loud Metal/Grindcore Music Into My Earphones.
We All Know Its Bad For The Ears, But If You Like It, Why Not?
Finishing Every Single Bit Of A Plate Of Chips While Dinning With Big Cheeses, If You Like It, Why Care?
I Feel That People In This Earth Has Grown To Restrain Themselves To Doing What They Like To What Would be Appropriate.
All I'm Saying Is.
Let Loose, Do What You Really Want.
Wear What You Really Like.
Express Yourself As You Are, And Not Someone You Aren't.

Photo Credits : T.I.M.E By Rach_Engel , Deviant Art