Hello!

I'm Not Going To Care What People Say Nomore..
I Am Gonna Love Her, And Take Care Of Her, Even If All Odds Are Against Me.
I Love Her.

The Worst.

What To Do?
What To Think?
What To Feel?
Selfish? Arrogant? Untrustworthy? Mortified? Useless?
What Have I Done?

Pain.

There Are Times That We Feel Intense Pain.
A Pain Not By Falls Or Trips,
But, A Pain Regarding The Heart.
When Someone Close To You Leaves This Earth Without Telling You,
That Pain Is Felt Again..
Time May Be Unable To Heal Any Scars,
But, Scars Makes Us Stronger Than Who We Are.
With Life, There Also Comes Death..
Acceptance Is One Thing, And, Perseverance Is Another.
In Time, I Hope That Things Would Look Out Better For You, Wayne.

~ Faithful Friend, Ricky

Guiiiittttaaarrrr!

Yesterday I Bought My First Electric Guitar!
Yeah, A Lil Late! But, I'm Picking Up Real Quick Now!
Learnt To Play Chasing Cars : Snow Patrol / My Heroine : Silverstein
And More To Be Coming!
Watch Me Rise!

And, Yeah, For Those Who Doubt My Love Towards Tiff,
I Can Say This, Everyone Loves Another In Their Own Ways.
Its Our Relationship, Don't Judge When You Aren't Part Of It.

14th Of The Month.

It's The 14th Of The Month.
A Month,A Day I've Known Her.
There Has Been Many Bad And Great Moments, But, That's What's Healthy In A Relationship
We Spent The Day Watching " Coming Soon " Together At Cathay, And It Was Great!
At The Start, I Was Real Scared And Pussified And All, But, I Laughed At The End Of It.
Although We May Have Doubts With Each Other At Times,
But, I Know We Still Trust Each Other Alot. And I Cherish Every Moment I Have With Her. :D
I Want More Time!!!

My Relationship With Her Is Totally Different From Yours!

- 14. march. 2009

Happiness

Happiness Is Beheld By The Ones That Really Go After It.
It's Been The Third Day That I'm With Her,
Every Hour, Minute, Second I Spent With Her Was Really Fast..
She's Officially My Everything.
Even Though I Can't Make Promises Of Such Of Eternal Love,
I Know One Thing, And That Is I Really Want Her..
I Don't Know If Marriage Would Be Intervened,
But, I'm Willing To Be With Her Till The Day She Gets Sick Of Me.

Photo Credits : Peggy
~Shake That Tiny Heart!
9th Of March, 11.03 PM

Change.

It's Been Awhile Since I Blogged,
Things Changed From What It Was Meant To Be.
I Have A Few Close Friends.. And Things Were Looking Good.
But, I Guess Some People Don't Really Enjoy Me Sharing About My Past,Present,Future.
I Won't Be Saying Much About Myself For Awhile I Guess.
I Just Hope I Can Be Accepted By The Ones I Hold Dear, And It Would Be Suffice.
And I Discovered That I Really Love Sunflowers.
Thanks To : Tiffany,Joeann, Peggy, Nehemiah, Peggy, Timonty, Sister-In-Law, Drich, Glenn, Xavier, Ben. For Making School Much Better.

Fucking Gently.

Valentine's Day...
Spent It Drinking, Gambling And Drinking.
Watching So Many Couples Having So Much Fun, I Think Of It, And Reflect Upon My Own Empty Life..
How I Wish I Could Have Someone For Me..
I Called Up A Few Friends And Just Talked..
Life Is Such.

12.28pm,
15 feb
Ricky.
Life Is such. And I Would Wish That I Wasn't Born

Pierced.

I Just Got My Lip Pierced On The Second Time.
It felt real good.
have you ever felt pain that actually feels good?
something that makes you so real?
thats what happened to me.
as Jesline pierced my lips, i stared hard into her eyes.
she told me not to stare.. she inserted the needle into my lips so slowly,
as it goes in, i can feel every inch going through.
it was painful, but i dont know why i enjoyed every moment of it.
I Guess No one Can Explain Certain Feelings Felt By People.
And This Is One Of It.

15th January, Christ Church Sec, 3pm

Barvazarr!

Its my second day of orientation, I just missed it.
The First Was Okay, Only Thing Is I Discovered The Teachers Had Made It Very Difficult For Students To Use And Smoke.
I Don't Know. I Think I Kinda Like The School. Only Thing Is Theres Cliques Here And There.
I Hope Everything Would Get Better...
I Guess It Will Work Out Fine, So, I'm Actually Looking Forward For The First Day Of School.

12.51pm
14th January, 2009
Baby, Join My In Death.
~Ricky

Girl, Interrupted.

It's 3 am over here. But I Felt Like Making A Movie Review, So, Here It Is.
I Just Watched Girl, Interrupted. With my sister and jude * Sister's Boyfriend*
Its a movie about a girl named Sussana who is going mad,who was admitted to a institution for the mentally disabled.
She had to live with the patients which she wasn't too comfortable being with.
The First Few Months Felt Like Hell To Her, And She Was Dying To Get Out. But Slowly, She Grew To Like The Other Girls.
------------ Don't Want To Be A Spoiler, Catch It Yourself. ----------

My Rating : 4.6/5 stars.
Acting : Brilliante
Script : Good.
Length Of Movie : Not Long Enough
Flaw : Hard For Certain People To Comprehend

The Betrayed.

I Spent Another Day Without Sun.
It seems that most of my days are filled with cigars, hookah and drinking.
You Could Say I Don't Have Much Life If You Would Like To.
It Seems I'm Facing A Certain Nostalgia Today.
It Feels So Long Ago Since I Was Convicted For Stealing Phones.
Happened Last Year June, A Man Name Jacob.
He Seemed Like A Trustworthy And Strong Leader. * Lies And Mistakes*
I Trusted Him When He Told Me We Could Make A Quick Buck Within 5 Mins. I really Trusted Him.
He Asked Me To Drag A Few Boys From The Arcade Into The Carpark, And Asked Me To Wait Outside.
After Which I Never Heard Of Him Again Till I Saw Him At A Lockup.
Trust Noone. Spare Noone.
7.44pm 9th Of January 2009

Awhile Back In Time.

It's Been Awhile Since I Met My Old Classmates..
Today I Had An Opportunity To Meet Them.
I Went To The Open House Of Ngee Ann Poly.
Even Thou I Wasn't Interested Much In That School, I Must Say I Had Fun Today.
Seeing All My Old Friends Brings So Many Great Memories I Used To Have.
But Now, Schooling In A Private School,
I Guess I Won't Have Much Privilege To Meet Them Much Anymore.

09/01/2009 Dreadful Year.

Welcoming A New Year..?

As This Time Of The Year Approaches,
Many Families In Singapore Are Ready To Celebrate The Festive Season They Call Chinese New Year.
I Have To Admit, I Really Used To Like This Season During My Childhood.
But Right Now, Going Around Giving Mandarin Oranges To Receive Pocketed Money Don't Seem That Fun Anymore.
Well, Perhaps It's Because I Have Grown Out Of It.
Either That Or I'm Sick And Tired Of These Traditions.
I Went Shopping For Chinese New Year Clothes With My Family Today.
Shopping List : Plain Hoodie ( White) < Yes >
Atticus Shirt < No >
Sex Pistols Shirt <No>
Shirt From Ministry Of Clothes < Yes >
Striking Comic Themed Bag < No >


I Guess The Reasons Why I Didn't Get Certain Items Was Because They Were Inappropriate,
Such As, : Atticus Shirt, Black.
Sex Pistols Shirt, Wordings.
Striking Comic Themed Bag, Have No Clue At All.

The Tradition Actually Says That Black Is An Ominous Colour, So I Can't Wear It.
Most Of My Days Are Filled With Going On Facebook, Drawing, Reading, Gaming And Running.
I Don't Even Like To Go Out Much Anymore.
I Guess All These Would Change If I Made It.
I Decided Not To Go Visiting This Year,
Just Wait For Halloween And Scare The Singaporeans's Shit Out.
I Can Never Be Happy And Get The Stuff I Want.

Photo Credits : I'm A Fake, Kei Zei, Deviant Art

First Entry

This Is My First Time I've Used Some Online Medium To Express Myself.
I'm Bad With Organization And I'm Not Too Sure If I Would Even Continue Using Blogspot After Today.
I'm 16.
I'm A Rebellious Kid.
I Have An Older Sister That Cares Alot For Me, A Father That Nags Like A Woman, And A Quiet Mother.
I Have Disappointed Them For Many Years.
Remember The Kid You Would See Trying To Smoke Pot Down By The Lakes.? That Sounds Alot Like Me.
The Times Where You Are In A Lift And Some Annoying Kid Smoking In It.? Yours Sincerly
The Thing About Me And These Habits Is..
I Don't Care. All I Do Is Destroy.
That Maybe What You People Would See In Me.
But To Me. I Do So. Because, I Know Life Is Too Short. If Cigars And Pot Makes Me Happy,
Or The Very Least Contended,I Would Just Go Ahead.
Listening To Loud Metal/Grindcore Music Into My Earphones.
We All Know Its Bad For The Ears, But If You Like It, Why Not?
Finishing Every Single Bit Of A Plate Of Chips While Dinning With Big Cheeses, If You Like It, Why Care?
I Feel That People In This Earth Has Grown To Restrain Themselves To Doing What They Like To What Would be Appropriate.
All I'm Saying Is.
Let Loose, Do What You Really Want.
Wear What You Really Like.
Express Yourself As You Are, And Not Someone You Aren't.

Photo Credits : T.I.M.E By Rach_Engel , Deviant Art